The "LIFE VISION" is a compilation of what I want out of life. Victimhood is a result of wandering around through life, lost in an array of confusion, never "finding" happiness. When I know where I am going, what I want out of my life, where I currently am and how to get to my destination - then I am fully capable of living mindfully in the present.... completely content in the moment and living as a CONSCIOUS CREATOR of the life I want to live. So when we break down our beliefs and dreams and desires for ourselves into 9 categories, we can explore and continuously grow in the right direction. The following categories are my personal belief system and an explanation of where I choose to put forth my energy and what I want out of life. This list is ever changing as I grow and learn. I am writing this proactively, so even if there's a category I struggle with- it's written in a way that I am NOT setting myself up to fail. Instead I will succeed as I already have in so many ways.
LOVE VISION
"You can build a house out of anything, make it as strong as you want, but home is more fragile. Home is made up of the people you fill it with and people can be broken, but what's broken can be mended, what's hurt can be healed and no matter how dark it gets the sun is going to rise again."
The scriptures tell us to "love others as thyself", but how can I truly love someone else until I love myself? And how can I allow someone to love me if I don't believe I deserve to be loved? MY love tank is full when I love myself and I'm filled with God's love. Therefore I am not seeking outside of myself for acceptance, love or happiness. Allowing a man into my world takes trust and agency. I believe I am a whole person so I am looking for another whole person (not my other half) who already loves himself and has God in his heart so that together we can be growth partners. Life has enough drama I will not pursue relationships that add unnecessary negativity to my amazing life. I do not "need" anyone to take care of me, but I will allow him to be my hero and I will trust him to take care of me so I do not carry the burdens alone anymore and I will take care of him in return. I deserve to be in love with someone who truly protects my heart and values our love above all else next to Father in Heaven. Someone who will fiercely guard my heart with his own, wrapping his heart around mine to protect the life we create together. I won't pursue men who seek to injure my self esteem. I will never allow a man to hit me again, I deserve to be touched lovingly by those who I allow into my life. I choose to live consciously in the present. I will not mourn my past loves, I will not worry about the future that is undetermined, I will enjoy the present and the crossroads I find myself standing. What a blessing to have my life ahead of me completely full of possibilities.
I will invite a man into my home who will assist me in raising and loving my/our children. He will show my daughter how a man should treat her through his example. He will show my boys how a real man leads a family and how to treat a woman/children because he leads through his example. NO man can bring me happiness... I am responsible for my own emotions. I will be honest with myself when he intentionally cuts me down - I will no longer blame myself for being bullied and I will walk away faster than I have in the past, I have learned from my past, but I do not waste time living in the past. While dating I will slow down, I will not suffocate him nor will I run away from him. I will not be afraid because I deserve to be loved. I will allow him to love me - if we are good for eachother. I will not buy his affection or compromise myself for his happiness because I am quite a catch and any man willing to see that, will excitedly wish to spend his time with me. I will be transparent and honest, allowing him into my world. I am fun and willing to learn or try anything. I will not be so conscientious of my body that I miss out on truly living.
Each day is a gift and Im lucky enough to paint a fresh canvas daily, not a moment wasted. I am not a doormat and neither is he. Once we find each other, I will remind him everyday through positive affirmations because I am so grateful that he chooses to be with me and I don't take him for granted.
"You can build a house out of anything, make it as strong as you want, but home is more fragile. Home is made up of the people you fill it with and people can be broken, but what's broken can be mended, what's hurt can be healed and no matter how dark it gets the sun is going to rise again."
The scriptures tell us to "love others as thyself", but how can I truly love someone else until I love myself? And how can I allow someone to love me if I don't believe I deserve to be loved? MY love tank is full when I love myself and I'm filled with God's love. Therefore I am not seeking outside of myself for acceptance, love or happiness. Allowing a man into my world takes trust and agency. I believe I am a whole person so I am looking for another whole person (not my other half) who already loves himself and has God in his heart so that together we can be growth partners. Life has enough drama I will not pursue relationships that add unnecessary negativity to my amazing life. I do not "need" anyone to take care of me, but I will allow him to be my hero and I will trust him to take care of me so I do not carry the burdens alone anymore and I will take care of him in return. I deserve to be in love with someone who truly protects my heart and values our love above all else next to Father in Heaven. Someone who will fiercely guard my heart with his own, wrapping his heart around mine to protect the life we create together. I won't pursue men who seek to injure my self esteem. I will never allow a man to hit me again, I deserve to be touched lovingly by those who I allow into my life. I choose to live consciously in the present. I will not mourn my past loves, I will not worry about the future that is undetermined, I will enjoy the present and the crossroads I find myself standing. What a blessing to have my life ahead of me completely full of possibilities.
I will invite a man into my home who will assist me in raising and loving my/our children. He will show my daughter how a man should treat her through his example. He will show my boys how a real man leads a family and how to treat a woman/children because he leads through his example. NO man can bring me happiness... I am responsible for my own emotions. I will be honest with myself when he intentionally cuts me down - I will no longer blame myself for being bullied and I will walk away faster than I have in the past, I have learned from my past, but I do not waste time living in the past. While dating I will slow down, I will not suffocate him nor will I run away from him. I will not be afraid because I deserve to be loved. I will allow him to love me - if we are good for eachother. I will not buy his affection or compromise myself for his happiness because I am quite a catch and any man willing to see that, will excitedly wish to spend his time with me. I will be transparent and honest, allowing him into my world. I am fun and willing to learn or try anything. I will not be so conscientious of my body that I miss out on truly living.
Each day is a gift and Im lucky enough to paint a fresh canvas daily, not a moment wasted. I am not a doormat and neither is he. Once we find each other, I will remind him everyday through positive affirmations because I am so grateful that he chooses to be with me and I don't take him for granted.
This is my future and who I want to share my life with. I’m in no rush; God is preparing me for something amazing. I will utilize this time to grow and prepare myself as a more patient, more loving woman who can communicate better and I will be emotionally healthy enough to bless and serve the man of my dreams. I will not be afraid of men, I will allow them into my heart with faith in love. I will not force love into my life, I will just be me and allow him into my life when the time is right. I recognize that love is a gift I choose everyday and Im blessed with agency, I will be the person he chooses to wake up to everyday because I choose to treat him as my King (not my servant) therefore we fill the air with a sweet aroma of mutual respect and Christ like love. I will become the person I want to be with, then Ill attract that kind of person naturally. One day I will write a novel based on my incredible love life. It will be a story of triumph, it will inspire and it will remind people to believe in LOVE. "Be the Goddess you were destined to become and be worthy of the righteous man you seek." I choose to respect myself and see the beauty within instead of the temporary flaws of my flesh. I see myself in the same light as my Father in Heaven sees me. I deserve so much more than I have ever experienced and one day, the right man will see the beauty inside me and choose to spend eternity by my side as best friends and live out our days without contention, instead filled with peace, love and joy.
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REPUTATION VISION
Socially I am free and comfortable around others by tapping into the LOVE I have for everyone around me. Therefore I no longer feel shy or afraid to be seen or judged. I can fully be me without the need for acceptance. I can dance in public, I can live my life in complete harmony with my beliefs without holding back. I can talk to strangers about heart felt issues, I can sit back and enjoy the ride while loving those round me so much that I radiate LOVE to all those who come into my presence. I am seen as authentic, real, vibrant, inspiring, loving, compassionate, sensitive, and amazing. UPDATE: when I wrote this a year ago, these were my goals, how I wanted to live... I can officially say this is who I have become.
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Socially I am free and comfortable around others by tapping into the LOVE I have for everyone around me. Therefore I no longer feel shy or afraid to be seen or judged. I can fully be me without the need for acceptance. I can dance in public, I can live my life in complete harmony with my beliefs without holding back. I can talk to strangers about heart felt issues, I can sit back and enjoy the ride while loving those round me so much that I radiate LOVE to all those who come into my presence. I am seen as authentic, real, vibrant, inspiring, loving, compassionate, sensitive, and amazing. UPDATE: when I wrote this a year ago, these were my goals, how I wanted to live... I can officially say this is who I have become.
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WEALTH VISION
Money doesn’t create happiness. Love and family and connection to the earth and people do bring happiness. I no longer need a big home, possessions and countless hours working to produce a man-made happiness. Instead I will find my place in self-sustainability. I will rely more on God, the earth and myself. I will have what I need, I will produce the money necessary to survive so debt is not accumulated and save the rest. I will also invest in myself freely because IM worth the money. I will produce money by living the life I love and sharing my talents with those in need fulfilling my purpose and feeling like my life has meaning. One day I will live in a self-sustainable community or I will create a community of homes for women to live along with support for leaving abusive relationships. These communities will promote self-reliance and minimalist lifestyles.
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Money doesn’t create happiness. Love and family and connection to the earth and people do bring happiness. I no longer need a big home, possessions and countless hours working to produce a man-made happiness. Instead I will find my place in self-sustainability. I will rely more on God, the earth and myself. I will have what I need, I will produce the money necessary to survive so debt is not accumulated and save the rest. I will also invest in myself freely because IM worth the money. I will produce money by living the life I love and sharing my talents with those in need fulfilling my purpose and feeling like my life has meaning. One day I will live in a self-sustainable community or I will create a community of homes for women to live along with support for leaving abusive relationships. These communities will promote self-reliance and minimalist lifestyles.
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SPIRITUAL VISION
I commit myself to reading my scriptures daily... Cover to cover -over and over throughout my life. I stand up for truth and righteousness. I am an example to those around me and I share my testimony freely. I invest more time daily into my prayers and learning how to be less selfish in my prayers so I can fully follow God's will, I always follow through with the promptings I receive without question or judgment. I continue to prepare my food storage and emergency supplies as the spirit prompts. I live in obedience to God's law so that I can feel the spirit in my everyday life leading me back to my loving Father in Heaven and protecting me from the ways of the world. I do not tempt my weaknesses and I respect my body in a way that nobody comes before my relationship with God. When the time comes that I need guidance, I feel the spirit guiding me and showing me God's truth because I am worthy of the Spirit. I dedicate myself to living righteously and being obedient in all my thoughts, actions and choices. I am in control of my choices and the consequences are always just when I make a mistake, but I quickly clean up and re-commit myself. I forgive myself for being an imperfect human who is learning, but I never lose sight of my path and I continue to see myself as a Daughter of God even in my mistakes because I am not a mistake. When I am meek and mild, I have a greater ability to listen to the Spirit, therefore I am in tune with my own spirituality and I am humble. I soften my voice and listen more with my heart, loving more fully in the way that Christ has shown me. I trust God with my happiness and the happiness of those around me, I trust Him fully to steer my course. I trust God to always love me and I know He desires that I return to Him so I will continuously use the atonement to help me fine tune my life as I walk hand in hand with my Savior. I love my Father in Heaven, I love My Savior and I'm so grateful for the spirit and the gospel in my life.
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I commit myself to reading my scriptures daily... Cover to cover -over and over throughout my life. I stand up for truth and righteousness. I am an example to those around me and I share my testimony freely. I invest more time daily into my prayers and learning how to be less selfish in my prayers so I can fully follow God's will, I always follow through with the promptings I receive without question or judgment. I continue to prepare my food storage and emergency supplies as the spirit prompts. I live in obedience to God's law so that I can feel the spirit in my everyday life leading me back to my loving Father in Heaven and protecting me from the ways of the world. I do not tempt my weaknesses and I respect my body in a way that nobody comes before my relationship with God. When the time comes that I need guidance, I feel the spirit guiding me and showing me God's truth because I am worthy of the Spirit. I dedicate myself to living righteously and being obedient in all my thoughts, actions and choices. I am in control of my choices and the consequences are always just when I make a mistake, but I quickly clean up and re-commit myself. I forgive myself for being an imperfect human who is learning, but I never lose sight of my path and I continue to see myself as a Daughter of God even in my mistakes because I am not a mistake. When I am meek and mild, I have a greater ability to listen to the Spirit, therefore I am in tune with my own spirituality and I am humble. I soften my voice and listen more with my heart, loving more fully in the way that Christ has shown me. I trust God with my happiness and the happiness of those around me, I trust Him fully to steer my course. I trust God to always love me and I know He desires that I return to Him so I will continuously use the atonement to help me fine tune my life as I walk hand in hand with my Savior. I love my Father in Heaven, I love My Savior and I'm so grateful for the spirit and the gospel in my life.
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FAMILY VISION
This includes my entire family: siblings, parents, kids, ex-husbands, ex-wives, the entire dysfunction in it's raw form. No judgments, no criticizing, complete honesty and closeness with the reality we are living without covering up the truth with a preconceived external perfectionism. Those closest to me will have the best of me, not just what's left over at the end of the day. My family will be allowed into my dreams and passions and we will support each along the way no matter how our lives look because all that matters is the Love we share. My children are my greatest achievements. I am an example to my children and IM teaching them how to be adults someday therefore I am constantly in the position of being a role model for three beautiful souls that I desire greatly to attain happiness and success. My children's safety is my priority - mentally physically and spiritually. I am a mom and I am proud to hold that title. I have only a few short years on this earth and I choose to spend those moments with my family. I will take pleasure in the repetitive moments because consistency and redundancy is what builds trust and molds us.
Family is not composed merely of blood lines. My family extends to my closest friends and we assist each other with patience and understanding. I choose to drop my barriers and be completely honest and quirky in the safe place we create. I enjoy the freedom of socializing with everyone I come across, spreading happiness and love everywhere I go. People feel so comfortable around me that my family extends farther than I can imagine. I will allow others to help me, I am proud of my independence, but I will accept help from those I trust. When I'm struggling, I do not have to be strong, I can be a recipient of the love I put out into the world and I will bless others by allowing them to serve me as instruments of my loving Father in Heaven. I deserve love in all it's forms. I deserve to be loved. I will trust others to love me.
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This includes my entire family: siblings, parents, kids, ex-husbands, ex-wives, the entire dysfunction in it's raw form. No judgments, no criticizing, complete honesty and closeness with the reality we are living without covering up the truth with a preconceived external perfectionism. Those closest to me will have the best of me, not just what's left over at the end of the day. My family will be allowed into my dreams and passions and we will support each along the way no matter how our lives look because all that matters is the Love we share. My children are my greatest achievements. I am an example to my children and IM teaching them how to be adults someday therefore I am constantly in the position of being a role model for three beautiful souls that I desire greatly to attain happiness and success. My children's safety is my priority - mentally physically and spiritually. I am a mom and I am proud to hold that title. I have only a few short years on this earth and I choose to spend those moments with my family. I will take pleasure in the repetitive moments because consistency and redundancy is what builds trust and molds us.
Family is not composed merely of blood lines. My family extends to my closest friends and we assist each other with patience and understanding. I choose to drop my barriers and be completely honest and quirky in the safe place we create. I enjoy the freedom of socializing with everyone I come across, spreading happiness and love everywhere I go. People feel so comfortable around me that my family extends farther than I can imagine. I will allow others to help me, I am proud of my independence, but I will accept help from those I trust. When I'm struggling, I do not have to be strong, I can be a recipient of the love I put out into the world and I will bless others by allowing them to serve me as instruments of my loving Father in Heaven. I deserve love in all it's forms. I deserve to be loved. I will trust others to love me.
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TRAVEL VISION
As much as Id love to say I want to travel the world and see the beauty God has created in places such as Italy and Ireland and exotic islands... my heart says that there's a need in poor countries for children who have no homes, no food, no medicine and Id rather travel with the Peace Corps and make a difference. I want to hold a sick child, I want to feed a starving family, I want to travel outside of my comfort zone and change the world. I cant imagine wasting money on a cruise when there are children starving to death.
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As much as Id love to say I want to travel the world and see the beauty God has created in places such as Italy and Ireland and exotic islands... my heart says that there's a need in poor countries for children who have no homes, no food, no medicine and Id rather travel with the Peace Corps and make a difference. I want to hold a sick child, I want to feed a starving family, I want to travel outside of my comfort zone and change the world. I cant imagine wasting money on a cruise when there are children starving to death.
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EDUCATION VISION
I know money doesn't buy happiness and therefore I will not seek education merely to have more money to buy more stuff, inadvertently spending more time away from those I love so I can buy things I will not get to enjoy.
I do wish to increase my personal growth. I seek out personal development in every aspect of my life. I now I have much to learn and I will be teachable. I seek out better communication, better relationship patterns, I learn more about my passions, I allow others to teach me in areas I lack knowledge. Id like to become a Life Coach, Id like to find ways to use holistic medicine in conjuncture with life coaching to heal people completely: physically, emotionally, & spiritually. I feel fulfilled when I am deeply connecting with another, when I'm following my heart. Id like to learn how to achieve this more fully. I believe I am learning everyday and Im only living fully while IM learning and growing. My partner will also seek out growth, but we will consciously grow together so that we do not grow apart. I will rejoice in the opportunities I have to learn and grow with the man I choose to love.
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I know money doesn't buy happiness and therefore I will not seek education merely to have more money to buy more stuff, inadvertently spending more time away from those I love so I can buy things I will not get to enjoy.
I do wish to increase my personal growth. I seek out personal development in every aspect of my life. I now I have much to learn and I will be teachable. I seek out better communication, better relationship patterns, I learn more about my passions, I allow others to teach me in areas I lack knowledge. Id like to become a Life Coach, Id like to find ways to use holistic medicine in conjuncture with life coaching to heal people completely: physically, emotionally, & spiritually. I feel fulfilled when I am deeply connecting with another, when I'm following my heart. Id like to learn how to achieve this more fully. I believe I am learning everyday and Im only living fully while IM learning and growing. My partner will also seek out growth, but we will consciously grow together so that we do not grow apart. I will rejoice in the opportunities I have to learn and grow with the man I choose to love.
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ACHIEVEMENT VISION
One day I will sky dive (I'm afraid of heights, but fear has no power over me anymore)
One day I will build my own "tiny house" and live mortgage free
One day I will remarry for all the right reasons
One day fear will no longer be a part of my vocabulary
One day I will run a women's community and provide emotional support, financial support and tools to become their own "creators" of their lives and no longer be victims.
One day I will live in a community of like minded individuals all seeking to achieve similar goals, a faith based community striving to live the simple life full of peace and an abundance of God's love.
One day I will add to my list and continuously grow and never live a complacent life
One day I will sky dive (I'm afraid of heights, but fear has no power over me anymore)
One day I will build my own "tiny house" and live mortgage free
One day I will remarry for all the right reasons
One day fear will no longer be a part of my vocabulary
One day I will run a women's community and provide emotional support, financial support and tools to become their own "creators" of their lives and no longer be victims.
One day I will live in a community of like minded individuals all seeking to achieve similar goals, a faith based community striving to live the simple life full of peace and an abundance of God's love.
One day I will add to my list and continuously grow and never live a complacent life
HEALTH VISION
I am strong and I am healthy. I rededicate myself to a plant-based vegan diet for my body to function in accordance with a natural preventative medical approach. Let your food be your medicine and your medicine be your food. I will move my body daily, stretch, practice yoga, exercise and relish in a strong, healthy body. I will live at peace and unity with the earth and the animals we share this planet with. This earth is alive and she nourishes me with her soil. I will care for her as she cares for me. I will never play the victim of my health while creating the problems that control me. I will take responsibility for the consequences I create with my body. I know this body is a creation of a loving God and I only get ONE! I will treat my body with the nutrition it needs to function properly. I know that the way I eat affects far more than just me... It teaches my kids and pollutes the environment and possibly takes the life of a helpless animal. Animals are treated cruelly and I will do everything in my power to save them from a life of misery. I will balance my hormones so that I am in control of my mood. I will be healthy enough to enjoy my children's youth and to offer my husband with children if that's something he desires. I am my body, my body is the vessel in which I function day to day... I value the opportunity to be at peace with this miraculous living body
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I am strong and I am healthy. I rededicate myself to a plant-based vegan diet for my body to function in accordance with a natural preventative medical approach. Let your food be your medicine and your medicine be your food. I will move my body daily, stretch, practice yoga, exercise and relish in a strong, healthy body. I will live at peace and unity with the earth and the animals we share this planet with. This earth is alive and she nourishes me with her soil. I will care for her as she cares for me. I will never play the victim of my health while creating the problems that control me. I will take responsibility for the consequences I create with my body. I know this body is a creation of a loving God and I only get ONE! I will treat my body with the nutrition it needs to function properly. I know that the way I eat affects far more than just me... It teaches my kids and pollutes the environment and possibly takes the life of a helpless animal. Animals are treated cruelly and I will do everything in my power to save them from a life of misery. I will balance my hormones so that I am in control of my mood. I will be healthy enough to enjoy my children's youth and to offer my husband with children if that's something he desires. I am my body, my body is the vessel in which I function day to day... I value the opportunity to be at peace with this miraculous living body
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